After more electrifyingly charged exchanges with J, in which he has somehow managed to get me to open up and admit my growing feelings for him, not only as a Dom, but as a man, we are to meet at ten this morning. I really don’t know how I’m managing to function as my head is swimming with anxiety and excitement, all of the things we’ve discussed, from dancing and horse riding to some of the darker things we have in common, are swirling around in my head like a spiraling vortex of emotion.
If indeed J actually does turn up (I have yet no reason to doubt him, but my head will not let me believe until I see), there is no guarantee of course that the chemistry that has been so evident over the ether, will exist in person. And even then, if it does, will that same chemistry mean we are to be friends, lovers, Master and slave or simply two people who share a common interest?
So many questions, so many self doubts, so many nerve endings jangling around my body.
To borrow a line from the movie ‘Working Girl’, I wonder if it will be “Coffee, tea or……..me”.
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