my First Trip Into sub space

i drove out to Anaheim to see Master and L the next weekend after my first flogging experience. He was kind enough to get me and my kids passes to Disneyland, and i was extremely excited for Him to meet my kids. My nerves were all over the place as i pulled into the hotel. i got my key at the front office as He had instructed me to, and drove around the building to the room. i entered the front door and was surprised to see it empty, except for some luggage and baby bottles. i instructed my kids to put their things away and i got them some water. We sat on the couch and tried to find something to watch on TV. It wasn’t long before the door flew open and Master stood there, grinning from ear to ear.

He and L came in and she took the baby in the bedroom to get him ready for bed. He sat down on the coffee table and formally, yet quite adorably, introduced Himself to my children. My kids introduced themselves back, and about that time L came back into the room with their baby. Master then introduced her as His wife, and introduced the baby. My children were very excited, as they usually get when meeting someone new, and they began giggling and playing with Master.

After a while, i put them to bed and joined Master in the living room. i asked where L was and He said that she was laying with the baby. i went in and she groggily greeted me. i gave her a kiss and told her how much i missed her. She stated that she would not be able to play with Master and me this weekend and i expressed my regret over the news. She expressed hers as well, and the baby started to rustle. i gave her a quick kiss and then went and re-joined Master in the living room to avoid waking the baby. He sitting in the recliner on His laptop.

He requested a shoulder rub and i happily obliged. He pointed to the computer and showed me the floggers that He was buying. i literally got tingly at the sight of them, and could not wait for Him to use them on me.

“That’s enough,” He said, gently patting my hand, indicating for me to stop. He then sat the computer down and walked over to the end of the coffee table and pointed to the other end. i hurried over and grabbed the other end and we moved it out of the way. He then began to remove the pillows from the couch and i joined suit. We pulled out the bed from the sofa and i immediately laid on it. He grabbed the computer and joined me. After a few moments, He showed me a poster of Marilyn Monroe online and my eyes widened. It was from her Playboy shoot, and the background was red. i absolutely loved it!

He asked me if i wanted it and i hesitated. i nervously fidgeted and glanced around the room. He again asked me if i wanted it and i buried my face into his arm, looked up at Him and quietly answered, “Yes, Sir.”

He smiled and clicked on “Buy Now.” i was beaming inside, but nervous as hell. i hated asking for things. But i was so completely flattered by His offer, that it made me blush.

He put the computer away and got up and turned out the lights. He came back onto the bed and i snuggled up into the crook of His arm. He asked me why my top was still on. i had it off within seconds, and then curled back up into His arm. He began playing with my tits and gave me the look, that look He gets right before He wants to violate me. His hands made their way down to my waist of my pants and He unbuttoned them, shoving His hand down to play with my pussy. i groaned and squirmed underneath Him.

He whipped His hand out of my pants, used it to turn my head towards His face and kissed me hard. i moaned quietly underneath Him. He then rolled towards me and grabbed my hair and pulled my head back, whispering firmly into my ear that i was so sexy. my entire body melted at the sound of His voice. He then rolled me over onto my stomach and i felt Him get up off the bed. i heard His belt jingle as He unfastened it and i began to mentally prepare for Him. He got undressed and grabbed my ankles and jerked me towards Him. He then grabbed my pants by the ankles and ripped them off of me, fast and hard. my heart was racing so hard i felt light-headed as i felt Him reach up and grab my panties and slide them off.

In what seemed like seconds He was on the bed behind me. He grabbed my hips and jerked them up towards Him. i gripped the bedsheets underneath my face and tried to relax as He spread my ass cheeks with His hands and pressed the tip of His cock into my tight little hole. Pain seared through my ass as He pressed His cock deeper into me. He began to moan, the moan that i had come to know so well and my body was flooded with satisfaction at hearing His pleasure. i shoved my face into the pillow and clenched a big chunk of it in between my teeth, screaming into the soft cotton. He made it all the way into my ass after a few thrusts, and despite the incredible pain, it began to feel really good. i began to moan and let go of the pillow with my teeth and pushed my ass up towards Him a little, silently begging Him for more.

He reached up and grabbed a big chunk of the back of my hair with His fist, jerking my head back as far as it would go. The angle of my neck left me very little air supply, and as i struggled to breathe He pounded deep into my tight little ass over and over until we both came. Once He was done, He fell on the bed next to me as we both caught our breath. Afterwards, we watched a little more TV and then He went off to bed. As i snuggled down into the bed, i excitedly imagined what the next day would be like. It would be our first full day together, Him, L, me, and all of our kids. i couldn’t wait to experience it.

The next morning, everyone woke up and i made breakfast for us all. As we ate out on the patio, we discussed the day’s plans. The hierarchy around the table was interesting. He was on top, and beneath Him was L. They together were above me, and my children were beneath me. i liked the feeling, and wondered how the day would play out with both me and L as mother figures with Him as our lead.

After breakfast, we all headed out to Disneyland for our extended family’s day of fun. It was wonderful! My kids loved Master and L, and they loved them. We all took turns chaperoning the kids, and i wondered why more people didn’t participate in polyamory. It felt so natural and nice, to have Him there as our leader, and L there as a second mother-figure. i daydreamed a lot while we were there about how wonderful it would be to all live together, on the same property and have everyone under the same roof.

That night we came home exhausted and happy. Everyone went to bed and Master stayed up with me, just as the night before, on the sofa bed watching TV. Within a few minutes, He unzipped His shorts and presented His cock to me. i eagerly rolled over onto my hands and knees and began to suck Him hungrily. He held back my hair and watched me with a look that was a mixture of pride, satisfaction and love. He let me continue to suck Him for a few minutes before stopping me. He instructed me to take my pants off and as i did He pulled on a condom. i laid there next to Him, waiting for Him to take me, when He surprised me by motioning for me to mount Him. i was suddenly flooded with nerves as i timidly climbed on top of Him. i was not good at being on top, and He had told me a long time before during one of our chats that i was not allowed to be on top and i was actually very relieved to hear it. Now, as i slid my pussy onto His cock, i worried and stressed over my performance. i did not want to disappoint Him, and for the first time in quite a while, i felt shy with Him. i began to slide up and down, shuffling my feet for the best footing. He was so big that i could not brace myself with my knees as i did with most men, so i flattened my feet on either side of His waist and squatted onto Him, sliding my ass up and down. This position was easy for me, but the problem was that my thighs weren’t strong enough to support me in it for too long. i tried to forget about my worry and concentrate on how good He felt, and just then He grabbed my hips and started slamming my pussy down onto Him, pausing for a split second each time to press His cock into the top of my pussy, sending a pleasurable pain throughout my entire lower body.

With His help slamming me down onto Him, i began to feel myself cum, and i could tell that it was going to be a hard one because of how bad it hurt when it started. It felt much like a cramp, a sharp pain in my pelvis, deep in my pelvis, so deep that i could not exactly pinpoint it. i struggled to withstand the pain as He continued to slam me onto Him, faster and faster. i tried to keep quiet as the pain increased and grew closer to the surface. i finally threw my head back and let go, letting the pain shoot through my entire stomach, legs, ass and finally pussy, which slowly became pleasure as it did. i shook uncontrollably as my entire body was flooded with a kind of numbing tingling. Just then He flipped me over onto my back and began to fuck me with all His might. He reached up and covered my mouth and nose with His hand as He fell on top of me, whispering aggressively into my ear that i wasn’t allowed to breathe until He came. i struggled underneath His grip, but tried hard not to move or squirm so as not to distract Him from His pleasure. my heart rate began to race as my body screamed for oxygen, and just about the time i thought that i might black out i suddenly felt an orgasm start. It came quick and fast, and my eyes rolled back into my head as my pussy throbbed. Just then, He suddenly started to cum, groaning loudly and slowing His thrusts to long, deep strokes. He finally released His hand from my face and i gasped and choked as air flooded my starving lungs.

He rolled off of me and we both caught our breath. I rolled over onto my belly, happy and spent. i expected Him to begin flipping channels, but once again, Master had other plans for me. He rolled over on top of me with his chest pressed into my back, and began moving the hair off of the right side of my neck. Once it was all moved to the side, He grabbed a fistful of it and tugged my head backward. His deep voice flooded my ear, neck, and face, which sent tingles down through my chest, over my nipples, down my stomach, across my pussy and down my legs all the way to my toes. my eyes rolled back into my head as His voice started asking me questions, one by one…

“Do you know how much I love you?”

“Yes Sir,” i whispered loudly, since speaking normally was impossible due to the angle of my neck which cut off the majority of my air supply.

“Do you know how special you are to me?”

“Yes Sir.”

He kissed along my neck, and then along the curve that connects my neck and shoulder. When He got close to the end, near my shoulder, He moved down my back about an inch, finding the large bite that He had left on me the weekend before. He again grabbed that spot in his teeth and clamped down on it. Pain and throbbing immediately shot through my entire shoulder, back, neck and arm. i squirmed underneath Him, panting and squealing in a mixture of pleasure and pain that shot my entire body into a floaty, dreamlike state.

His hand reached down and He slid His fingers in between my wet, throbbing pussy lips as His mouth released my skin.

“Whose pussy is this?”

“Yours,” i whispered.

His grip on my hair tightened and He yanked my head back a little more. i choked and gasped as He asked me again.

“Whose pussy is this?” His tone was firmer.

“Yours,” i sputtered, not quite sure if He was asking me again for effect or if i had answered incorrectly.

He yet again jerked my head back. My air supply was almost completely cut off.

“WHOSE PUSSY IS THIS?” He asked again, this time with an angry and impatient tone in His voice. my mind panicked, searching for the correct answer, wondering what i was saying wrong, knowing that if i did not figure it out quickly i could very well black out from the lack of oxygen. The only thing i could think of that i was leaving out was “Sir.” Desperate for air, i tried my answer again.

“Yours, Sir,” i choked out, barely audible. His grip on my hair softened but did not let go. Relief flooded my lungs and chills ran through my entire body. i stifled my coughs as the air suddenly filled my lungs and the blood pumped hard and fast throughout my body.

He re-adjusted His grip on my hair and bit down on my already marked shoulder once more. i again squirmed and panted, and my eyes again rolled back into my head as i resumed my floating from before.

He held on much longer this time, and the tingling and throbbing increased, as my body was even more alert from the lack of oxygen and hard pumping of my blood. My pussy began to throb and tingle and i began to moan. The movement of my pussy lips on each other from my squirming began to stimulate me even more, and i felt as if i might cum at any moment.

He finally let go of my shoulder and once again jerked my head back, placing His mouth right at my exposed ear.

“Who do you belong to?

“Youuuuu,” i purred.

His grip tightened and He yanked my head back even more. i suddenly remembered the lesson from before as He asked me again.

“Who do you belong to?” His tone was firm. i could tell that He was disappointed.

“You Sir,” i answered quickly, eager to show Him that i remembered how to answer. i was determined not to make the mistake again.

“Good girl,” He said, moving His mouth directly onto my ear as He spoke. His moist lips on my ear combined with His firm voice piercing even deeper into my ear again sent chills all over my body. i was floating even higher now, oblivious to anything and everything except the way He felt on top of me and the sound of His voice inside me.

My eyes rolled back into my head again, but they were closed. i let myself float higher and higher, the effect feeling much like a drug, i was not aware of where i was, nothing else existed other than His touch and voice. He stopped asking me questions, but began making statements, deep into my ear, His lips brushing against my ear with each word.

“You belong to me,” He whispered, taking several long and deep breaths, exhaling into my ear each time, sending me higher and higher.

“You are MINE,” this statement was firmer, with a pronounced emphasis on “mine.” His grip on my hair tightened.

“I want to own you…..FOREVERRRRR.” When He said the word “forever” He pressed his mouth hard onto my ear, holding out the word at the end, letting it fade away. My body melted even deeper, and it was the first time since He last let go of my shoulder that i noticed my body. But i didn’t feel everything, just a sense of relaxation, and as i melted i floated even higher…

“I love you,” He said, and my heart flip-flopped, again for a split second reminding me that i still had a physical body, even though it felt miles beneath me.

“How many times did you cum?” He asked. i searched for a moment, counting and answering, “Twice.”

“Was one without me being inside of you?” He asked.

“No Sir,” i answered, quickly adding, “But almost…”

“That’s what I thought,” He answered, His tone firmer and louder. Suddenly He grabbed the chunk of skin that He had been biting with His fingers, and pinched it as hard as He could. Throbbing shot through my whole body as i cried out in pain. He twisted it and pinched it harder as tears began to stream down my face. i squirmed underneath the pain as the throbbing began to concentrate on my pussy, as each time i squirmed it stimulated me. The throbbing in my pussy got harder and faster, and with the hand that was gripping my hair He yanked my head up to His ear and demanded that i cum for Him.

i cried out from the pain in my head and shoulder and the intense throbbing all over my body, with an emphasis in my pussy. The throbbing began to become more of a thump, and i felt my orgasm begin.

“CUM FOR ME,” He demanded, His tone firm and flat with His mouth pressed hard onto my ear. “CUM FOR ME NOW!” He demanded even harder and louder. The thumping in my pussy increased and I felt it start to cum as i shook and moaned underneath Him, tears streaming down my face. i had no control over my body, over my brain. i was on autopilot, nothing mattered except Master. i came for Him, very hard and fast. It was intense, nothing like i had ever experienced before. As i shook even harder underneath Him, He loosened His grip on my hair but did not let go, and i suddenly realized that i had not been breathing as air suddenly filled my lungs.

He let go of the chunk of skin on my shoulder and waves of pain rippled throughout my shoulder, neck, back and arm. When the ripples met the skin and pressure of His chest on top of them, they sent little sharp shocking sparks throughout the area. It sent me flying, even higher than before, and my body quivered under the intense combination of pleasure and pain. my pussy thumped in long, hard shots, starting off soft and deep, then focusing and centralizing at my clit each time, sending waves of pleasure throughout my entire lower body just in time for another thump to occur. The intensity of the multiple sensations ripping throughout my body caused the tears to flow even more freely from my eyes and down my face.

He did not move or speak. He simply laid there, letting me feel every sensation one by one. After my body began to calm and recover, He rolled over onto His side and swept me up and into the crook of His arm, stroking my hair back from my face.

“Do you have any tears for me?” He asked lovingly. His tone was soft and gentle now.

“Yes, Sir. They are on your arm.”

He pulled my hair back even further from my face and lifted my chin towards Him. i looked up at Him through the tears in my eyes as my chin quivered. i had the urge to sob, although i wasn’t sure why. It wasn’t that i was sad, or hurting. i was simply overcome with emotion and the intensity of what i had just felt. i was still floating, but i was aware of my body now, i could feel every inch of Him against me. my feet against His legs, His hip pressed into my groin, my perky and alert nipples against His chest. i lowered my head and snuggled down into His arm, and the urge to sob immediately subsided. Although the tears felt wonderful- a huge release of emotion and feeling- i was relieved that i did not sob.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you baby,” He whispered. i immediately recognized the words…

“But you’re pretty when you cry.” It was lyrics to one of His favorite songs. i smiled and squeezed my eyelids together and snuggled deeper into Him. He kissed me on the head and then stood up off of the bed.

i started to panic slightly. The sudden absence of His body, His presence, sent me into a sudden spin of feelings. my body felt like it was missing something, a piece of itself.

He was gone, i wasn’t sure where, but i knew that He was not in the room. i rolled over onto my other side and curled up into a little ball. Suddenly He was back, sitting on the edge of the bed next to me. i felt calm again, at peace.

i opened my eyes and looked up at Him. The tears were still spilling out of my eyes, although i wasn’t sure why. i had no desire to stop them.

“Mmmmmmmm….” He moaned underneath His breath. He stroked my hair away from my face and turned my chin further up towards Him.

“Do you know how beautiful you are right now?” He asked me.

i averted my gaze and smiled timidly. i always felt so flattered when He complimented me. i sputtered out something about not feeling very beautiful right now when suddenly He tightened His hand on my chin and gently but firmly moved my head back up towards Him.

“You are beautiful, and you are MINE….forever.”

i softly nodded and He leaned down and kissed my lips. He let go of my chin and i sank down into the pillow, curling up tighter into a ball.

As i closed my heavy eyes, He said, “Goodnight sunshine.”

“Goodnight Sir,” i whispered.

i heard Him leave the room and just then, my descent began. i began to feel heavier, and i felt as if i were sinking. i panicked for a second and wondered if i were dreaming. my eyes flew open and i looked around. i saw a lightswitch, a lamp, a door. i tried to piece it all together. my brain was fuzzy, and i was having a hard time focusing. i blinked a few hard times and looked around the room again. i felt my body tingle all over. The tingling was strong, much like when a limb has fallen asleep. i closed my eyes and let the tingling swell and then cease. Once it had faded to where it was almost gone, i re-opened my eyes. i began to notice more things around the room, a TV, a table, some chairs. i recognized the hotel room. i was in Anaheim. We all were there. L, the baby, the kids. Everyone was there. Master was there too. He was in the next room, laying next to L. i suddenly felt at peace. i was one with my body again. i was safe in bed, with the people that i loved the most surrounding me. And that was all i needed in this world…

xoxoxo

sunshine

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